THE OTHER SIDE OF DREAM (a novel)

Muna has been introduced with Jamshed at Ferry station of Aricha. Muna associated with all had gone to homestead of their forefathers in Barisal to celebrate Eid after a long gap. But when that joy was going in vain in order for falling into a long jam coming at Aricha Ferryghat, at that moment she acquainted with a miraculous creature named Jamshed.

When Muna was about to a breathless situation, because of sitting hours in the car during traffic jam, she stood alongside the road stepping from their newly purchased BMW car. She was about to mad watching the traffic congestion. As far as eyes go, there are rows of motor vehicles stopped. They are still far away of a couple of Kilometers from the station. She absent-mindedly uttered-Alas! It is not seemed that this traffic jams will go to an end. Moreover, movements of Ferries are also being prevented due to the low ebb of the river. Today misery is waiting for their fate. When she is about to take a turn to sit her car again thinking these all, right then, an over curious youth stood before her. He himself told by laughing, traffic jam, Apa (sister)! It is thought that it will take a couple of hours removing.

- Seen so, Muna replied in spite of her unwillingness.

- The incident of waiting is very hard and disturbing, especially in a journey.

- Really so, Muna added.

- First, we should have an introduction. I am Jamshed Sarder, Father’s Name is Hakim Sarder. The name of Grandfather is Malek Sarder. We belong to Sarder Family. Once it was a time of influence. But now a days nothing exists. It is difficult to arrange three square meals in a day.

- Extremely sorrowful.

- What’s your identity?

- What will you do with my identity; will my introduction bring any benefit to you?

- Don’t know. May be. One cannot say when one will benefit another one.

- Words like a philosopher. Heard nice.

- Will you take betel? I take betel. Very enjoyable. I have no toxication of Cigarettes. I don’t take tobacco or ‘Gul’ (a mixed toxication). To say toxication is this only the betel. The betel from original tree. I have brought it from my village. Let be taken, It is good in taste. The time will be spent by eating.

So far taking betel, Munu never, even a little thought to take Betel. The ‘Maid Servant’ of their house take Betel. Muna has used nuisance words to her for it.  The rubbish words have used very much. The women spotted houses throwing rest of betel from mouth. Sometimes, it also spotted their worthy wears. But no ‘words’ can give him sense. She in no way can cease to take betel. In the past she took it face to face. Now takes in hiding. Muna suddenly laughed absent-mindedly.

- What’s the matter? You laughed! You got laugh hearing my words.

- No, No, this is another thing. Give me original betel of you. Take taste. Penalty, if not tasted.

- Be done that. But it is seemed to be tasted that. Jamshed Sardar’s especial pack of betel. It is priced two taka only. But it is free of cost for you.

- Why is it free for me?

- Apa (Sister), it is for publicity. Understand, in order for publicity, today I offer you free. If it is good in taste, then tomorrow you do not take it free of cost. You, then will take by money. Then it will be covered up.

- You are really a man of fun. Do not you sell betels?

- Don’t worry Apa (Sister). The Sardars  are now not in a position of so poor that they have to sell betels. What is whether not having domination? We do have prestige. Take and eat betel.

- Muna really took betel from hands of Jamshed and placed at her mouth. The girl having Masters in Economics from Oxford engulfed at her mouth the betel taking from hands of any unknown youth. An astonishing incident to be said. Her mouth tuned into a new taste. That expression has been clearly indicated at her eyes and mouth. Jamshed gets into laughed. He becomes happy.

- Now started chewing. At first it will be tasted like chili. Then after everything will be Okayed. You will find going to the end what a good taste. Then you do not think that you have done wrong thing by eating betel. Rather you think that you have done wrong if not eating betel in a life.

Muna continuing swallowing betel slowly. She has been surrounded with a strange sensation. The near of ears grew hot. The first Betel in life. And that is also with green betel nut. She, as it were, feels a toxication. She tried to take feeling of this new taste to the deepness of her existence. She told in mind that the thing is not so bad. So, it bears nothing positive to blame ‘Bua’ (Maid servant). It is not bad if is possible to forget many miseries by not getting in life amid a taste like it.

- This is the first time Muna looked at jamshed. She is in full bloom smiling. Jamshed asked, how do you feel Apa (Sister). Do you make any penalty?

- Muna smiled. She replied shaking ‘No’. Jamshed felt joy very much. The two sat on grass beside the road. Muna spoke first.

- What do you do?

- I have a little job. But a government job. It has a guarantee.  Moreover, there is a scope of taking bribe. But I am not so shameless. I don’t take bride. It is my joy I do have.

- Why do not you take bribe? These days every on is taking bribe openly very often. What do the reason of not taking bribe on your part?

- There is no comfort from money by bribery. The blessings do not exist in the family.

- You told not bad. There is no ease by sin.

- How do you know this word?

- I have heard this from our ‘Bua’. Maidservant Bua.

- The talk is truth. The danger comes from Allah.

- Let be off these short of talks. Where is your village?

- Agarpur village under Babuganj police station of Barisal. There is a college there. The name of the college is Agarpur Degree College. A new college but very good. A great number of students it has. There is a canal beside the college. A Bazar is situated opposite the canal. Our home is less than half a kilometer from Bazar. Sardar Bari. Once there was fame. But now-a-days the status is not so good. Everybody is not capable to arrange three meals in three times.

- You have told it before.

- I think your sense is very clear. I have heard that kids of the reaches are not so talent. The memory is dull. This situation on the part of their kids is the result of evil money. The fat restored to the body. The talent is not keen.

- I see that you have heard a lot about the riches. But what is the reason of thinking me reach by you?

- You have dropped from BMW motor vehicle. Certainly it is not a motor vehicle of poor.

- Do you know BMW?

- Why do not I know? This BMW is the pride of German.

- What other motor vehicles do you know? 

- Roles Royce, Limousine, Mercedes Benz, Nissan Patrol, Pajero, Land Cruiser, Toyota, Opel, and many others?

- Good! I think you are a car specialist. How do you know a large number of vehicles?

- Don’t know by buying or be ride like you. One of my cousins is the technical of Garage at Gulshan. I sometimes visit him. He introduces those. I feel well. The car is very interesting.

- Did you ride those vehicles anytime?

- Yes I have ridden. But in other way.

- How?

- When he is on test, then he moved around once or twice being picked up me. I enjoyed it.

- How are you traveling Dhaka?

- By Bus.

- AC Bus?

- Where shall I get AC Bus. It is hard in getting Ticket of normal bus. I have gathered it after a hard struggle.

- The rest way you will be with us riding our car. Hey, do you have any objection.

- Will your parents be angered?

- How do you sure that they are my parents?

- There has been similarity with appearance?

- Is it?

- Yes.

- Can you say how I am to see in comparison with my parents?

- Like your father. He is very handsome to look at. More than your mother.

- Is it so! You observed so much.

- Sometimes it has to be observed.

- Why is this?

- Objectiveness, everything of human life cannot be happened by thought. But sometimes one can turn into balance himself by present wisdom. Do you think that I talked with you accidentally? The incident is never so. I had been observing you all since a long time from the distance. Especially you. You are very beautiful. I guessed that you are single. If you are married, then you are with your husband. Besides this, married girls are understood.  I am also single one. Looking for the bride. Everybody wishes to get at hands the Moon of sky. It is expected whether having no eligibility. I am not any lord. I am a very common one like other people. I do not think unrealistic. I pipe being a cow Boy that, as it were, the Queen comes to me like a mad by the tune of that pipe. It is true that really I have no pipe at my hands. That is why I gave you betel to eat. It is to win your mind. Whether I know that I am not priced equivalent to a wheel of your vehicle. But I cannot control my over expectation. Man is a strange creature.

- You have talked a lot by a breath. Now, take a breath. Will you drink water?

- Please, give.

Jamshed took the bottle of water from hands of Muna. He drank a more. Then being stopped a while asked with a depressed tone. Have you minded seriously by my words?

- Why, have you told anything to be minded?

- Already told. I have told many rubbish words. May be truth. But the art of saying is not proper. It is a violation to gentlemen ship. It was not just to say so read truth. I am really sorry.

- Let not be so sorrowful. What is after being told? But right now certainly you are relaxed. Certainly you are relaxed.

- Yes, you can say. I cannot without saying the real truth for a long. The members of Sarder Bari are somehow likely to it. Once it was time they had plenty of resources. Now -----

Muna stopped him being said up to it. Told laughing, this is the third time beginning it. I have memorized.  

- These times the status is not so good. Everybody can not be able to feed three times.

Muna burst out into laughing. Jamshed also laughed with her.

The severity of sunlight has been increasing reducing acuteness of the winter. But the jam, as it were, knows no bound. Muna suddenly felt that she is hungry. She told Jamshed to stay there and stood up for bringing food from the car. Being back she saw that Jamshed is not there. She looked for him a long time. Hunted all the vehicles. But she could not sight any creature named Jamshed. Muna was very much upset. She does not know why she was upset. She, absent mindedly, sighted a while to the field coming along side the road. The greenery paddy trees to the paddy field there have been vibrating slowly by little winds. She also felt that vibration inside her heart. She threw the foods suddenly to the wetland beside the road thinking whatever. Then she cried beyond her conscious.

The very little, as it were, has been expressed by her tears of which the unseen storm like the flood of ‘Nuh’ throughout her heart the first time for an unknown man. Muna herself could not understand what happened to her. Then whether does she love the man? Not so much is felt. But why she felt so?

A couple of months have been passed. The life of Muna started forward with her self way. Her life was approaching with her job of lecturer ship as well as business as a hobby. Where she does have time to think any thing. But without any reason sometimes she remembered Jamshed. An interesting name, Jamshed Sarder. The man is funnier. She becomes off mooded remembering the rest of the incident. The chest, as it were, becomes heavy. She could not forget the rest event of that days trying at her best. Where did Jamshed flee?

Muna has decided to purchase a land for a new office of her new business organization.

Muna is in tension. She has to be moved to the office of the land to verify papers. She becomes ready completing her daily actions waking up at early morning. She will attend a Mazar (Religious Grave) first. From there straight to the office of the land. From there again straight to the University. She has only one class today. It is at twelve.

She has obstacle to going out. Generally never happened so to her.  But today, as it were, her newly purchased Oakley branded sunglass fell into the ground suddenly. But that is not broken. It has come to a slight touch at its glass. Yet she becomes off mood. Why it is done, never it is happened.

When she arrived at the land office attending Mazar, then it is at ten. The office is somehow crowded. She could not really understand that in which table she will talk and to whom. Suddenly she halted even going to be called someone. She tried to remind, is not it Jamshed! How does he here? From where? Then whether does he serve in this office? Not summing up of these thinking, she shouted going before him, is not it Jamshed Bhai. I am Muna, have you recalled me? 

- Yes, I did. I have met you in the Eid vacation at Ferryghat of Aricha. But you could not say your name then. Now I noticed that your name is Muna.

- Where did you go not being noticed me? I have looked for you much more. I had been without food not getting you. I have thrown all the foods into the water. You did not do well.

- May be. Might be that was not proper. Again did right. The meeting today would not so sweet if I did not leave you likely.

- You are making a fun with me. You are making mockery hurting a person. This is too offensive.

- Forgive me. Never will it be happened again.

- Do you know that I take betel now? I feel good. I remember you when I take betel. I become into tears. Everybody thinks it like a chili. Mother said, what is the need to take that rubbish if it falls into a hard situation. I can’t say her that it is not the water of betel. This is the crying of my heart. Why did I cry you couldn’t understand that? I oppositely told that it would be happened if taking betel. You do not understand. 

- Do you understand self?

- Yes, I understand. I cry, as I understand.

- If understand, why do not you surrender yourself at your self will leaving behind everything?

- You do not give me that opportunity. You fled away.

- That I have done. But I have left my heart at that Arichaghat.

- But I had picked up that.

- That is why ,today, after a long time I got back again.

- Like so?

- Yes, now tell, why here?

- I shall purchase a land. That is for my new office. I have come to be informed about the land.

- Where, be seen the papers. Muna dragged out the papers and Jamshed. Jamshed witnessed the papers sometimes taking at her hands. Then after looked at Muna and told ‘please come’. Be sat at my table.

He offered sitting Muna bringing a chair. He sat in his chair. Then after he started to observe the papers attentively one by one.

This is the first time, witnessed deeply Jamshed a well structured able man of strong physique very manly like mentored in the Greek Mythology having copper color-face of longest shape. A good loving thought the face of the man under coverage of moderate wears. She was very much pleased for an expression of sincerity inner from unexposed man belong to the man of ancient. She sighted strongly. This is the first time when any man of ancient covered her full world. Shading deep dark into the eyes weared modern sunglass of a very modern gift. The inner of body of Muna, as it were, has been moved inside the deep of that darkness.

It was eleven when Muna went out from office of the land. She moved university straightly by a car taking good-bye from Jamshed. She had a class at twelve. The face of Jamshed was visible frequently to the screen of her eyes going on the way. Her heart laid on papers kept on the table of the office of land through the body of her has moved on.

The days transformed into month. Muna herself, as it were, comes into the office of land frequently. She might come whether Jamshed did not invite her. The act of land of her has been accomplished long before. But the transaction to the man of land office, as it were, has not end. The movement to this treaty less way of one life, that is true like the endless moving cantering status since starting of creation to the chest of solar world.

Jamshed has been invited to the Birthday of Muna. She participated also. There is no reason not to participate. He is a human being though poor. Apart from it, Muna loves him. She also respects. It is natural to attend there. But this going of him cannot treat anybody normal. Because of, Jamshed is the only unfit showpiece that day. The display of red mouth eating betel as well as wearing poor priced wears by Jamshed has been seemed unfit at an evening of that colorful and decorated festival for rich persons. Somebody could not understand whether he was any guest or arrived for any task. The event does not overlook the sights of her parents. They have told by words that she, as it were, keeps in mind that Muna Chowdhury is the only girl of Swapan Chowdhury passed from OXFORD. No need to say more. Muna has understood what she needs to understand. She was hurting severely. How she will forget Jamshed. How it is person to this world of forgery. Is it possible?

The new Moon comes after full Moon; the ebb tide comes after the high tide. The life of Muna is also formed by ebb tide and high tide. Basically not only the life of Muna, life of each person is full of endless struggles. Whether that be a successful or failure person. Nobody is beyond this truth. Why Muna will be exceptional of it. Missing Jamshed getting him. Later being again moving to the way. After it, restlessness of the other and expression of the same. The little event associated with all, that is not a bed of roses. Her golden life which is full of riches, the greenery green grass to the horticulture of that life where flowers bloom, there also some harmful insects come. Her life however moves. That is not stopped. Because of, it’s existences remains within its movement.

Muna is very much intended to fly like a colored paragon associated with all colors of love bringing out from the relationship of love with Jamshed to her this long loveless life. But, why she can’t. She cannot do for herself feature. The beautiful Muna who was brought up by the affection of her parents have always ignored friends carefully in spite of her beautifulness. She has avoided it because her parents informed that her marriage will be happened with their liking Bridegroom. So, no benefit will come thinking otherwise. Muna also has thought a thing that she is the only girl of her parents. It is not possible to hurt them. Muna, that is way, very easily ignored so many events of loves at her one life. She, like calm girls, has returned back not washing hands and mouth going near to the water. She has felt existence of bone at her foot before entering to the soft world of love. She has stopped her secret door of the heart silently before understanding something.

No exception has done in terms of Jamshed. Though she told a lot, but has basically did not tell nothing. Whether she walked a lot, but really she did not cross any way. 

It is clearly indicated watching her power of control that she does not cross any distance though she was under shadow of the right. The restlessness due to touch of masculine inside any women coming at this while of life and youth, that is why not only for untouched one like her, but also make agitated sometimes sex workers also. But Muna is gentle and calm. That, as it were, she knows her future. However, she, sometimes goes to that unfit guy who is weird opened button backdated Sweater in the line of women more cheaper than his cheap shirt and red leaped eating Betel at office of the land.

This is a phenomenon of love. The love sometimes makes smart the most foolish one also. It also makes brave the coward one. And in terms of violation of commitment and everybody of the world knows that there is no alternative of love in terms of violation of commitment. Nobody knows numbers of lovers have continued their loves secretly violating the promises given to their parents. But Muna did nothing of it. Her movement is up to the office of the land.

Jamshed understands everything. He is very illusive for Muna. But he does say nothing. Also he has nothing to say. He feels severely that Muna has been fighting all time against herself. Rather, he feels good to think that, a worthy girl like Muna has engaged herself with her life. But he fears also. The involvement, as it were, not being as bone attached at end part of shari of a beautiful girl. Jamshed is somehow calm. He is more careful at his each step than being vibrated to the weight of emotion. He cannot help Muna falling into danger who is a worthy girl. What it might be called except danger? The offensive initiative to hang him with a sinless, softhearted girl having all qualities is no doubt to fall her into a danger.

Jamshed is poor but he is not so a mean man. He also has greediness to get Muna but he has no to express the same so nakedly. Muna is a good girl and she loves him, it is good. But he cannot stimulate her. Rather, he tries to be neutral. He thinks himself offensive partly. Because he connected himself like a waste carrying luggage van to the moving train of the life of Muna.

This sinless girl does not burn so heavily by this unknown fire, if he voluntarily did not talk with her at Aricha Ferry Station. Overall, why did you go to eat her betel? Did not it that not need of giving Betel to this innocent girl which is so love-seeking and wicked one. You, guy, have done a crime. Whether it is done, you have to pay. Why did you bring other among it?

She has got back Jamshed around two months. Muna, of course, has gone to the office of land by this time. Of course, her motive is only to meeet Jamshed. Jamshed also know that. The two also laugh with it. But she never went out with Jamshed. Jamshed is very formal into the office. He talks with measurement. He behaved with Muna in such a way that she has come for official need. Muna also understand that. She smiles hiding mouth. She told in mind, wait. You have to face a hard job. The mood is that you do not understand anything. But at inner you are a mature one. Muna has come alone so far she did. Why with her friend today?

Muna herself opened it. Do you go out? Mum can phone me. She will not make any tension whether be known that Ruma is with me. She will be able to enjoy uninterrupted travel accompanying with Jamshed. None will mind anything whether be seen. It is safe from all quarter.

But Jamshed refused Muna to go out astonishing her. Ruma also becomes astonished. So pride of a man like this. He has a good fate in getting proposal to wander with such a beautiful, smart, educated girl who is daughter of a rich family. But this man is undoubtedly so latent. Otherwise no one will say ‘no’ likely.

Muna gets upset. She even do not think that Jamshed will response her so negatively. But human being is really a peculiar thing. Jamshed is more miraculous than imagination. Youth in age but takes betel. Never take bribe. Good looking but wears cheap garments. He also wears open chest hanging button sweaters in line of women. He ties Muffler in neck though he has no problem of cold. Jamshed, who is good in physique, like a piece of ‘Goran’ tree, does not know what is disease. No question of touching cold raise.

These two girl friends went out. Jamshed remains sitting alone at the balcony of the office. The evening comes leaving afternoon. The betel box is consumed one by one. Jamshed yet still remains sitting. He could not whether tried to stand up. He was weighted so heavy in life first at this stage. He thinks that he again returned back to the womb of her mother being performed all the tasks in the world where he was ten month and ten days at a dark room. Jamshed cried shouting, mother! After a long day he feels that his mother calls him by his name. An orphan at his childhood Jamshed is as soundless as a miracle stone. All the bunches of feelings of Jamshed dropped at the ground scattered. He somehow steps picking up breaking parts of his existence through silence of the night. Every human being has to return his house unaccompanied at the end.

Muna does not come again. Jamshed also does not go. The play of hardship continues silently. Days pass, months too and years run. Muna cannot be traced out further. Jamshed takes easy everything. Rather he thinks, this is good. However, it has reached to a conclusion. The language of love may give how much happiness remaining grammar of hardship. The event becomes some easy for Muna. She got a way to be off from Jamshed.

Bravo Jamshed ! Bravo! You have done good refusing her that day. Once you did good leaving behind at Aricha Ferry station. But the stupid fate again brought her to you. Now you did a good job refusing her. The sentimental girl, she will never come who went out not coping with the insulation. You have no fear. You have rescued. This hurting of loneliness is somehow great than burning together by two of which burning of love. You, the man, have become the great man. Just a little Buddah! Goutam Buddha. You will get your reward in the latter world for this great work whether not being got in this world.

One year, Two years, Three years. Jamshed is still unmarried. Everyone says that he has no need to be married. He himself thought so. What benefit he gets being married. It is not easily available girl like Muna. So tender, so illusive. And what is the loss if getting no marriage! Minimum it was once a time love came. That was not any simple love. The royal love. The love of a queen like Muna. Everybody does not get it.

Jamshed again was going to his home by Eid Vacation again.  He dropped from the motor vehicle just after it reached at Aricha Ferry station. When he was about to eat betel opening box, at the time someone called him. I think you are Jamshed Bhai (Brother). Jamshed looked back. He easily identified her. Ruma stood up. A kid of two years with her. Her husband may be beside her. Jamshed advanced forward. He asked smiling. How are you? Are you going to celebrate Eid accompanied by Brother-in –Law at your village home.

Yes, are you also going?

Yes, I do. At each year I go my home by Eid. My parent’s graves are there. They will feel hurt if I do not go my home at Eid. They certainly will not feel good alone. Jamshed is their only asset. Can he make them cry?

The tone of Jamshed becomes weighty saying the words. Ruma also understand that. She jumped into other issue. She asked-

- Do you recall Muna?

- Why not?

- She is now married.

- Is it? When it happened. she informed me nothing.

- She got married suddenly within fifteen days of meeting with you with a son of her father’s friend. They live in Brazil. Her husband runs business in Brazil.

- Why in Brazil having so many countries in the globe?

- So that you cannot go there. Ruma smiled saying it.

Then told, I just make a fun simply. Did not you mind anything?

- No, No, Why I do so. You can certainly make fun.

- Muna had said that you know all sorts of vehicles. Are you able to say, look, there is a red car belongs to us? What is its brand?

- Chevrolet.

- This is somehow uncommon here. How did you say?

- The eminent writer of India Shova Dey use this car. Do you know shova Dey?

- What is if not knowing. Jamshed responded having some weight? I have read many books of her.

- It’s amazing! What sorts of books of other writers did you read?

- Bikrom Sheth, Amitav Ghosh, Shib Khera, Orundhati Roy, Kiron Desai, Monika Desai, and many others? Just not be ended saying likely? Many noted writers belong to the homeland of India. I have read books of them also. This is likely V.S. Naipol, Jhumpa Lahiri, Ruth priyour Jabbala and others.

- Thanks to you. Muna then did no mistake.

- Why?

- You know a lot. It cannot guess watching lightly.

- It is not true that Muna did not make an error to love me, as I know many things.  There is no relationship of knowing and unknowing with love. I think so simply. I never have made an introduction of my knowledge to Muna except my view over cars. She trusted the explanation in recognition of car. What I made her. The ‘words’ is true, again partly true.

- What was the ‘words’?

I told her one of my cousins is a garage Technician based in Gulshan. I have got skills to know motor vehicles from him. That is not fully true. One of my cousins works at Garage as Technical, it is true, but that is not in Gulshan. And I never go to him to recognize car. I have learnt everything from the reality surrounded my life.  Nobody leaned me anything by hands. Apart from it, I study a lot. I sit in computer at the end of office each day. I browse everything in the Internet what I wish to know.

- Do you use Internet regularly?

- What is of not to be practiced. It is a nice thing.

- I am strange to think. Your are so smart. Then why do you move like a foolish one?

- There is no obligation that I have to move like a king. What is if move like a king or not. Would something of the world again if I wonder like a beggar? Nothing will be undone of the globe. It does not do anything. Everything is a matter of our mindsets. 

- Why did you refuse Muna?

- To save your girld-friend. I did not wish her to fall in danger.

- But she loves you very much. Right now, she loves you. She cries for you when talks with me over telephone. Her husband knows about her loving affairs. She has informed everything him.

- She did not do it well.

- Why?

- Nothing has happened among us that it should be known.

- As nothing be done, so it is necessary to be informed. It cannot be informed if something happened.

But Man is usually having with doubtfulness. Can be told jealous.

- Her husband is a very good man. He loves her very much knowing everything. 

- It is a lie.

- Not a lie. Truth. She has told me.

- No girl say false about her husband. Rather to be said more. This is a technique to show self happy by girls. You yourself also talk something more sometimes about your husband. But you yourself know that these are not true. Yet you tell so. Because you feel proud of it. Certainly, before other one.

- This is not a lie.

- Why do I say false?  What benefit I get to it?

- That’s right. There is no benefit. It is done what was possible to do.

- That’s not any matter. It is sorrowful to lose, but it is not the only thing. It is essential to understand the truth, to realize that and to contain that. That is truth for both who lost the love and who received it. It is not just to judge the great truth of the world in line of any incident that occurred in self-life.

- Are you a philosopher?

- No, I am an ordinary man. Very ordinary man.

- I don’t think so. I think that Muna had rightly identified you, though you did not expressed yourself. She, I think, discovered something in you. Otherwise, the girls who did fall into so depth of love passed her whole love- time without love. And again it does not matter whether someone in the line of her. Totally belong to the different line. Did not you mind anything with my words?

- Right now, I minded. The reason is that It means a different expression if you ask it in such a way. Asking whether I mind anything you can make understand that there is something to mind here. But as you are a person of coarse skin, you did not feel it. So, I tried to mind you. Otherwise why do I mind hearing this pure truth uttered by you? What you have said is a truth like water.

- It is very hard to understand you.

-  This is not right. You are an excellent girl. I am sorry to say ‘you’ to you several times without your permission. As I have approached, so can’t return back.

- To say sorry did you push me a back?

- No. No. Why do so? You all are my near and dears one. Very close.

- It is possible that you can keep my cell phone number. You can make yourself update about Muna. I always talk with her.

- I do not use cell phone. Apart from it, I work with the same office. Muna can meet me there if she wishes. And if not expected, why shall I disturb her by force? 

- You should not misunderstand her. This is my request. I know how much she loves you.

- Let you be good. Your baby is very nice to look at. Just like you.

Jamshed does not continue his talks. He ridded on Bus. The vehicle moved on the Ferry overcoming traffic congestion. The car of Ruma did not climb on Ferry for a little while. They are separated. The vehicle started to move on the high way. The heart of Jamshed reached at the door of the heart of Muna in Brazil within a second crossing all dynamic articles of the world. He knocked at the door sounding Khot, Khot.  The tone of Muna is waved - Who are you?

Jamshed replied - I am. Your Jamshed, Jamshed Sarder!

The neighboring seated man asked him – Hello brother, did you tell me anything?

- No!  Jamshed get balance. A drop of water at the corner of eyes of Jamshed is about to be dropped into the ground of the world. Jamshed automatically removed it.

The sound of absconded cloud is on the chest of the sky. The movement of clouds are all around. The sky is about to rain by the playing of whitish and black clouds at its bed. The rain is started ultimately. Jamshed entered into a departmental store to save himself. He stood absentmindedly. Many rain-derived like him have taken shelter there. Basically, what is to be done?

His hearing woke up suddenly by a sweet voice. He looked at from where that sweet sound came. Strange! It is his Muna. He never thought that they would meet again after such a long period. He was about to call her loudly but restrain himself. Muna is approaching towards him. No reason for not to meet Jamshed. 

Ultimately they meet.

The blood from all injuries of their distressed hearts

Have been shading always.

As shades from the young body of wounded Paddy Starling

Injured by the Hunter

Rather legs of Ducks, from where

Blood shedding is done secretly

Sourcing to the sign of injury hided under hair,

Right then, their hearts

Does not say any word by speech of mouth

Of course the expressions that sights

Focused strangely for decades.

Muna became very strange seeing Jamshed standing before her. Her voice, as it were, was expressionless. She did not utter anything trying her best. She looks at Jamshed perplexedly. She does not even trust that Jamshed stands before her.

Jamshed himself talks first. He asked how you are?

- I am fine. How do you do? The tone of Muna vibrated.

- Fine. But I did not think that we would meet in such a way.

- How did you expect to meet each other?

- No, of course, not any rainy day like it, in the way likely.

- So, you had a dream to see me?

- Yes, I did.

- Why did you refuse me?

- You know that better than me.

- We have been divorced. I have come back. I live with my parents.

- How long?

-  It is around one-month.

- But, Ruma did not inform me anything.

- Might be, you had no interest.

- But.

- No reason. I myself have forbidden her. I have told her that he might be informed everything when the fate make us meet. What is to be busy so?

- We met each other very soon by blessing of our fates.

- Really so.

- I want to marry you.

- Still now! After being informed everything.

- Why not? I am still unmarried. You are the only woman who is able to fulfill the vacuum of my life.

- Did not you utter like this ever?

- Was there any option to say?

- Yes, there was. But you did not take that opportunity. Rather you have refused.

- Your perception is wrong.

- May be. But your decision was responsible for it.

- If I say that you also could come back leaving behind everything. I, right now, sit at my space.

- All the girls dream to have a prince who will hold her hands and fly. It is not possible to be advance alone. But you didn’t do so.

- This is my failure. But I am also helpless.

- These all are rubbish logics. It was possible by you whether be intended. I got logic if you pressurized me. I got logic at least in favor of my decision. I could be able to understand me that I have left my house and hurt my parents, as you want to get me severely. But there was no such logic on my part.

- ‘Love’ and ‘Logic’ is not the same thing.

- I agree it. But love stands on the base of logic. No love is illogical.

- You are right also. Tell, what decision have you taken.

- No decision can be taken suddenly in the way. Let me think.

- Love does not take place by thinking.

- Then how it takes place?

- Look, like this. Thoughtlessly, without hesitation, conflictless and debate less. Jamshed catches hands of Muna saying all those. Muna does not discourage him. Many men were in the surroundings. They were gossiping at their level. The rain was shading uninterruptedly outside.

The   parents of Muna do not accept this decision at all. They know very well that the wrong going to be done by their daughter for emotion, it will take so many compensation. But Muna’s logic is the only one. She married the liking of her parents leaving her love. Then what happened? She migrated to Brazil which is at the end of the globe to run household with husband leaving job of University and business established. But Alas! She got no family-life. The happiness was not to her fate. Then what offence Jamshed did. Where is the discomfort of others, if she becomes happy with Jamshed.

But the logic of her parents is that which condition exists in Jamshed, it will result in that she would not continue for two days even. Muna does not understand that, it is not true. Muna herself is also frightened who is brought up through riches. But it is proverb that love makes a little cottage heaven. And the loveless palace is, as it were, like the empty desert. While the situation, she would happy in touch of Jamshed.

Muna, right now, does not think her marriage. But she must marry Jamshed. She is determined to do so. They have been separated one month around. Everybody will comment - Shame! Shame! if she marry right now. Apart from it, there is a matter of ‘Iddot’ (religious term). She wishes to pass these early days having love with Jamshed. The love which she did not do at a life of her. Might be, the two could be able to return back into a normal relationship through this process. She would be able to take a preparation mentally maintaining family life.

Muna stands beside the door at the end of office everyday. Jamshed stands up slowly leaving papers on the table. Then the two go out by vehicle of Muna. The two sit at a place which Muna likes. After that, talks start slowly. Jamshed tells a less. Muna starts mostly to the extent too. The conversation begins referring all general issues.

- How are you physically?

- Fine. But you?

- Also good. Why are you so off-mood? Are you distressed? 

- No. Why so? Besides, you are also here? The mind is okay automatically.

- But why? Am I a therapy of off-mood?

- You can say so. My mind turns into a good mood just of your arrival.

- So, you keep mouth so off-mood.

- My mood is good. But I think.

- What are you thinking?

- Surrounding you?

- What has to think about me? Have I loaded your neck?

- Not. But ultimately I have to take it.

- That will be done when be taken. Let laugh now. 

- Your moody-mouth seem to me like cloud of Ashar (a name of Bangla month). The rain is about to be stopped.

- No problem. Look, I laugh. Now are you happy.

- I heard from Ruma that you know many things. You have studied a lot. But you didn’t say anything ever about it. Or you liked Ruma more than me, so you did not go out with me.

- Let keep rubbish talks. Tell any other.

- Are you angry?

- No. Why shall not I angry? You tell opposite and shall I have no angry.

- All right. I shall not say so. Let me pardon for this time.

- I did. Let us gossip now.

- What do you want, boy or girl child?

- I did not think it at all.

- When do you think that? How long to be elderly.

- That you did not say badly. The kids of my friends have grown up.

- The same thing to me. Sons and daughters of many of my friends are seemed to be eligible for marriage. Of course, they had been married at their very early age. I never supported that. Still I don’t support it.

- I also do not support that. This is the reason of being late.

- Will you remain alone, if I did not return?

- Might be that.

- Do not you be hurtled?

- May be. But what is to be done. Where shall I get a girl like you at a life.

- Listen, I like baby boys. I want one baby boy in every two years. Don’t miss.

- Let stop the slang. It is the jurisdiction of Allah.

- But you have to try.

- That is to be done. Now gossip other.

- Why the other episode.  I am going to start a new family life. The story of that life is much more interesting to me. I want to display dream of my life together with you. Will you be beside me in that life? Make me words. Stay with me forever. The whole life and till to the death.

- I give you words.

- Now I am confident. You are a pious man. I know that you will keep your words.

- I shall try, but I expect that I shall pass.

Time forwards with such dreams of love and so sorts of expectations. The episode of life, as it were, is new at each day. Its appearance, humor, story and touch are new always. We, all are beneath of it. They are not outside who have loved or be loved in the coming days.